I think I have always been some sort of antisocial… well, not always. As a kid I did have a bunch of friends but that was when I was in elementary school and nobody judged anybody,
Middle school is where I lost it though. I just tried staying out of the anybody’s way and/or sight. Even now thats what happens. There are times when I want people to talk to me, but its not like I’d go out of my way to talk first,
And I get jealous and insecure because people want to know about everyone around me and they have people interested in what they have to say or think.
On the other hand, Im really alright with being the invisible/quiet girl to strangers or peers. I can be an observer. I like being an observer.
I want to be the quiet girl forever, The girl who nobody knows. The girl who people will assume everything about, but never actually get their assumptions verified unless they ask. The girl who is timid in crowds.
I want to stay the quiet girl for the rest of my life.